Brain Wave

 Brain Wave #19: Yo, guess what I be playing videogames and shit, and I'm not gonna lie sometimes I just miss studying. I don't know if I already mentioned something along these lines, but ever since I got back home I've been so thrown off by not following my university daily routine. Like I work every morning and then a few afternoons during the week I do something work related, but otherwise it's either watch The Sopranos or play The Last of Us, or whatever single-player game I stumble upon, not gonna lie I just wish I was studying. If you know me enough, you know that I absolutely hate the school system, universally to be honest: I find it so boring to sit in a building for hours 5/6 days a week just learning shit; I really enjoy learning, but I always wanted to go to university because of the independence I get to learn what I like the way I understand it. Last summer it was pretty much the same as what I have this summer, but I don't know it just hits different...

Brain Wave #18: Don't be afraid to fall Well so I came back from holiday, and God I really hate lay overs, especially when they get to 5 hours in length and I woke up at 2am...But yeah I've been to Sweden (and Norway, more on that later) and had just over a week with proper sleep. I gotta tell you, the UK is a "developed country in disguise" like now I don't wanna get political also bc I cannot throw out numbers right now, but I swear to everything, why on earth is the country I live in so underdeveloped in comparison to countries like Sweden: the people where I live are shit, the taxes that I pay don't do jackshit unlike over there, and,,, Okay never mind I'm kind of getting political, let's not make the subject of matter my complaints, shall we? ("I" but you already know by now that I'm schizo) But yeah, all and all I've only been able to visit Stockholm because of my bad leg, and some parts outside as I took an archipelago tour. Le...

 Brain Wave #17: *cricket noises* Every time I'm showering, I block my ears with water just to get the satisfaction of them unblocking later on. This surely cannot be safe, but why would I care? Anyway, I didn't forget about the blog, it's that my life has been so uninteresting lately that I can't even think about something to keep myself entertained even. All I do basically is just work in the morning and if I'm not doing other shit for work in the afternoon I'm just in front of screens...which also cannot be healthy, but I don't have any free friends at the moment, so not my fault hehe. I've started watching The Sopranos recently, and honestly I'm still in the "started" phase, because after 10 episodes Squid Game 3 came out and in these past few days I was catching up with YouTube. Yes, I am very aware that I am chronically online, and all of this does not affect my real life the slightest,,, but trust me it does, I grew up chronically on...

Brain Wave #16: ABSOLUTE CINEMA So I took some time off, both from the blog (actually no ideas :P) and my "daily movie watching" thing I have going on this summer, to go back and finish Better Call Saul, which I paused during exams and never came back to lmao. Two things I'd like to say about finishing the show: first off, I kinda managed to take a break before the last four, in my opinion best ending episodes, of the show which was a cool coincidence. Secondly, whatever I am gonna say from the next paragraph onwards will be a huge, very disorganised, mix of personal thoughts and "review" of the show. I am definitely not qualified to review a TV show, but having done lots of research and study on cinema over the years,,,and having had a stupid YouTube channel about movie reviews, kinda gives me a bit of an advantage to make a "review" about it. So yeah, just get ready for a big mess of an essay. Obviously there are gonna be spoilers as well... how coul...

 Brain Wave #15: This could be a weird superpower I be writing this shit at work bruh. Lemme start off by saying that whenever I say shit like "I was talking to my friend about..." I refer to one particular friend most of the times, you will see him in the comments of the last and some other entries. (Only in Blogger, once the website is up, you'll have no idea what I'm talking about). Anyway, I was talking to my friend about the previous blog entry how it's AI can get to a kinda scary level of intelligence, we'll live in the matrix etc. and to myself I thought "well technically dying would be a way to escape said 'matrix'" and yeah  technically it is, I certainly do not incite people to go away, but yk if you don't take this idea so seriously and you actually like living, in a sense the "matrix" is kinda treating you well. Unlike the movie, my school of thought was: would our perception of the world change if we were born in di...

 Brain Wave #14: Virtual insanity The last two weeks have been dreadful, university exams are not a joke...but also in this time a friend of mine showed me a video called "WE ARE NOT PROMPTS" in case you have no idea what I'm talking about, basically it's a 2 minute video made up of clips that are all AI generated, and the content is just generated people talking about the "prompt theory" and how these characters are trying to deny it. Now, I'm trying to imagine your prospective on it as you're reading it right now, this just sounds like your casual AI slop content of a stupid ass voice talking absolute nonsense, but it's not! OK, you might think I'm insane at first, BUT HEAR ME OUT! First of all: these clips are way too realistic, like holy shit I'm aware of how much AI has upgraded recently, but I had no idea that they could generate such realistic images, don't get me wrong I'm not the type of person who sees some AI slop on Fa...

Brain Wave #13: Shut the fuck up sometimes O.J. like, "I'm not black, I'm O.J.", okay. "Everything is political" is a phrase that I personally fucking hate with a passion. Everything is political because us as humans decided to make everything political, this can be traced back to the Mesopotamians, as well as I don't know, the 1800s. Depends how you see it, and what you mean exactly by it, depends on how much of societal behaviour you consider political, I mean at the end of the day it all comes back to Kuhnian perspective, right? Well, kind of: a lot of people out there who got consumed by the idea of the internet, and how you can share opinions with many other people, and they take the wrong way making it the worst creation in mankind. Taking a little tangent here, but you see, it's people like these, and I'm not talking about trolls who open arguments just for fun to make fun of people, but those who pretend they're all knowing and that t...

 Brain Wave #12: Cranberry juice Not just I haven't posted in a bit, the following post is just gonna be the amalgamation of two posts I wanted to make because I'm lazy, busy, and most of all forgetful lmao, let's get on with it. Just like every end of semester I am at a point in my life where I just don't give a fuck about my body and I'm super unhealthy a way or another, just because I'm trying to concentrate on doing well in my exams. I am very much aware that there are many ways to approach this in a very healthy way of not killing myself in a sense, but I don't ever mind what I'm going through and it's just me being me. I'm trying to improve don't worry, I try to eat well and shit and not overwork, which has been a recurring problem for me; the point I'm trying to get to is "holy shit I'm completely destroyed" but at the same time I feel like I've overgrown this difficulty and matured enough for me to understand how...

Brain Wave #11: Where do you think we're going? It's because of the fact that I worried too much about the judgement of others, that I don't think that I've been able to move forward as much as I wanted. Holy shit, now you got philosophical AND sentimental me...hold onto your seats in case you decide to keep reading. Don't get me wrong, I'm judge people just like everyone else out there does, don't deny it: as humans we're afraid of anything that is different to ourselves, which I think it's something automatic in the back of our minds, correct me if I'm wrong, but I know there something going on along those lines. But this has affects our perception of other people as well, again don't get me wrong overtime as we get to know somebody we are able to build trust and stuff, some more than others but that's just depending on the type of person you are (psst the answer is unique for everyone, don't let some pre-sets define who you are) bu...

 Brain Wave #10: Our future is Wall-E If you think about it humans are really good at being selfish. Oh my fucking God, there you go, I'm getting all philosophical and shit. Listen, I don't know much about philosophy or human psyche and shit, I know that I'm very underqualified to talk about any of this. But just listen to my take on it if you want to. So, since the beginning of human civilisation we started making kingdoms and empires and whatnot, you name it: we started to nominate people to be in charge of basically "controlling" their population, of course mostly because we need a way to regulate population and try to model and officialisation of morality, but other than that naturally every man is for himself right? (said man because that's how normally humans are referred to, don't get the wrong ideas smh) So actually how selfish are people willing to get for their own survival? Or even better, are people this selfish just by nature? Obviously, I abs...

 Brain Wave #9: Without all this Another conversation I've been having with my friends recently is: what would I actually like to do if I wasn't pursuing a degree, get a job afterwards, and live a life that modern society advertises you as normal. Well, my answer got received as quite unusual, but if it was for me: literally tomorrow I would leave everything that is going on in my life and just walk. I would like to escape from everything that I've been doing for the past 20 years and start a new life off the charts. Off the radar. If I could just disappear in one second I would just explore the world at its fullest. I would equip myself with a big ass hiking bag with: survival necessities, a few interesting books, a camera to take one singular picture per country I visit, a pair of headphones, and an mp3 with like unlimited music, obviously a power bank as well for the mp3 I guess. To then begin my journey, I would like to explore as much of this planet as I can, and all o...

Brain Wave #8: 8 hour sleep  Yeah I took the whole of last week off...the fuck do you want, huh? I got spring break and stuff and spent the whole week lazying around: spending my days working, studying a bit, and playing video games lmao. Nevertheless, I feel like nothing much has been going on anyway, I'm stressing more and more about exams, fully knowing that they start in 3 weeks and at the same time I feel like I want to give everything up, but that's next blog's topic hehe. One thing is for sure though, I mean it's been for sure since I was like 17, but I'm fucking aging. Oh my God, I said since I was 17 because even since then I got told that I look older than I am, and now that I got problems with my knee and I've apparently been "behaving like an old man" as well I can really feel the age weighing on me LMAO. But that might just be me and my personality issue :3 but that's is something we absolutely something we don't wanna talk about. ...

 Brain Wave #7: Human plants?! HEAR ME OUT! Today as I was studying for my course unit "Physics of the Solar System" just by reading the word "photosynthesis" talking about the Earth's atmosphere , my brain just goes straight to the idea of human plants. Let me explain myself: as we all know humans evolved from animals, we are animals; but what if humans evolved from plants??? Animals would still be around and chilling, just like how they are now (kinda) and us humans were like plants that gained consciousness: of course we wouldn't look anything alike current homo sapiens, maybe wouldn't have eyes and mouths and ears and whatever else animals have. However we would have lots of other features like roots, chloroplasts,  light detectors, and whatnot. I guess we would be walking, our roots would be able to attach and detach from the ground and allow us to transport and stuff. Thinking about this, I started to think it would be a much better world if this w...

 Brain Wave #6: Post Ichiko Aoba concert Well I went to see Japanese singer Ichiko Aoba and here are some of the things that went through my mind during this experience. Being the weird ass person that I am as soon as I joined the quite long queue to enter the venue, my brain straight connected to the last sequence in the movie "All about Lily Chou-Chou" where the main characters of the movie proceed to go to the concert of this Japanese singer with heavenly melodies, a deep meaning behind her lyrics, and of course a dedicated fandom behind everything. Being a Lilyholic myself, I don't see Ichiko with the same "fictional" eyes I see Lily: I was only startled by the situation I find myself in, similar to the one in the movie. Conformism: one of the things I most struggle in life is trying to "fit in" with my surroundings, I find myself quite capable of "adapt" to the social situations I find myself in, but never able to become what surrounds m...