Brain Wave

 Brain Wave #12: Cranberry juice Not just I haven't posted in a bit, the following post is just gonna be the amalgamation of two posts I wanted to make because I'm lazy, busy, and most of all forgetful lmao, let's get on with it. Just like every end of semester I am at a point in my life where I just don't give a fuck about my body and I'm super unhealthy a way or another, just because I'm trying to concentrate on doing well in my exams. I am very much aware that there are many ways to approach this in a very healthy way of not killing myself in a sense, but I don't ever mind what I'm going through and it's just me being me. I'm trying to improve don't worry, I try to eat well and shit and not overwork, which has been a recurring problem for me; the point I'm trying to get to is "holy shit I'm completely destroyed" but at the same time I feel like I've overgrown this difficulty and matured enough for me to understand how...

Brain Wave #11: Where do you think we're going? It's because of the fact that I worried too much about the judgement of others, that I don't think that I've been able to move forward as much as I wanted. Holy shit, now you got philosophical AND sentimental me...hold onto your seats in case you decide to keep reading. Don't get me wrong, I'm judge people just like everyone else out there does, don't deny it: as humans we're afraid of anything that is different to ourselves, which I think it's something automatic in the back of our minds, correct me if I'm wrong, but I know there something going on along those lines. But this has affects our perception of other people as well, again don't get me wrong overtime as we get to know somebody we are able to build trust and stuff, some more than others but that's just depending on the type of person you are (psst the answer is unique for everyone, don't let some pre-sets define who you are) bu...

 Brain Wave #10: Our future is Wall=E If you think about it humans are really good at being selfish. Oh my fucking God, there you go, I'm getting all philosophical and shit. Listen, I don't know much about philosophy or human psyche and shit, I know that I'm very underqualified to talk about any of this. But just listen to my take on it if you want to. So, since the beginning of human civilisation we started making kingdoms and empires and whatnot, you name it: we started to nominate people to be in charge of basically "controlling" their population, of course mostly because we need a way to regulate population and try to model and officialisation of morality, but other than that naturally every man is for himself right? (said man because that's how normally humans are referred to, don't get the wrong ideas smh) So actually how selfish are people willing to get for their own survival? Or even better, are people this selfish just by nature? Obviously, I abs...

 Brain Wave #9: Without all this Another conversation I've been having with my friends recently is: what would I actually like to do if I wasn't pursuing a degree, get a job afterwards, and live a life that modern society advertises you as normal. Well, my answer got received as quite unusual, but if it was for me: literally tomorrow I would leave everything that is going on in my life and just walk. I would like to escape from everything that I've been doing for the past 20 years and start a new life off the charts. Off the radar. If I could just disappear in one second I would just explore the world at its fullest. I would equip myself with a big ass hiking bag with: survival necessities, a few interesting books, a camera to take one singular picture per country I visit, a pair of headphones, and an mp3 with like unlimited music, obviously a power bank as well for the mp3 I guess. To then begin my journey, I would like to explore as much of this planet as I can, and all o...

Brain Wave #8: 8 hour sleep  Yeah I took the whole of last week off...the fuck do you want, huh? I got spring break and stuff and spent the whole week lazying around: spending my days working, studying a bit, and playing video games lmao. Nevertheless, I feel like nothing much has been going on anyway, I'm stressing more and more about exams, fully knowing that they start in 3 weeks and at the same time I feel like I want to give everything up, but that's next blog's topic hehe. One thing is for sure though, I mean it's been for sure since I was like 17, but I'm fucking aging. Oh my God, I said since I was 17 because even since then I got told that I look older than I am, and now that I got problems with my knee and I've apparently been "behaving like an old man" as well I can really feel the age weighing on me LMAO. But that might just be me and my personality issue :3 but that's is something we absolutely something we don't wanna talk about. ...

 Brain Wave #7: Human plants?! HEAR ME OUT! Today as I was studying for my course unit "Physics of the Solar System" just by reading the word "photosynthesis" talking about the Earth's atmosphere , my brain just goes straight to the idea of human plants. Let me explain myself: as we all know humans evolved from animals, we are animals; but what if humans evolved from plants??? Animals would still be around and chilling, just like how they are now (kinda) and us humans were like plants that gained consciousness: of course we wouldn't look anything alike current homo sapiens, maybe wouldn't have eyes and mouths and ears and whatever else animals have. However we would have lots of other features like roots, chloroplasts,  light detectors, and whatnot. I guess we would be walking, our roots would be able to attach and detach from the ground and allow us to transport and stuff. Thinking about this, I started to think it would be a much better world if this w...

 Brain Wave #6: Post Ichiko Aoba concert Well I went to see Japanese singer Ichiko Aoba and here are some of the things that went through my mind during this experience. Being the weird ass person that I am as soon as I joined the quite long queue to enter the venue, my brain straight connected to the last sequence in the movie "All about Lily Chou-Chou" where the main characters of the movie proceed to go to the concert of this Japanese singer with heavenly melodies, a deep meaning behind her lyrics, and of course a dedicated fandom behind everything. Being a Lilyholic myself, I don't see Ichiko with the same "fictional" eyes I see Lily: I was only startled by the situation I find myself in, similar to the one in the movie. Conformism: one of the things I most struggle in life is trying to "fit in" with my surroundings, I find myself quite capable of "adapt" to the social situations I find myself in, but never able to become what surrounds m...

 Brain Wave #5: My body is a mess Can I feel you teeth in my mouth. That's actually pretty disgusting and weird if you ask me, but those are just the strange ass lyrics of the song Dientes by The Black Skirts: I was listening the whole album 201 today while I was driving, as I do because my music taste is yet to be understood and that's kind of my comfort listen. What the fuck am I even saying?  Also when I was driving today ,and not listening to that song, I saw a huge billboard on the side of a truck in the middle of nowhere advertising Sigma Health, which I'm guessing is a stupid sounding private healthcare company, but I just wanna say that besides the logo there was this old ass guy dressed as a doctor, and he probably was not a doctor: he looked to old and wrinkly I wonder how his ballsack is holding up. On the subject of healthcare, if you know me you know that I've been having problems with my knee since like December. Fucking hell it's so annoying as well, ...

 Brain Wave #4: I'd make food my whole life Props to myself for not having a single click bait title, so yeah you get the gist: I love food. And not gonna lie I'm nobody special for stating this lmao, but one thing I feel like telling people at least once is that since I was a little fatass kid (I swear to god if you get annoyed by that comment get a life, I'm talking about myself) I just always loved to eat anything my mom would cook, wanting to learn how to cook myself, and even watching MasterChef (+Jr) religiously and hoping to get on one of those shows one day. Listen, I've never been a picky eater, and I don't think I'll ever be, there are very few things I'd actually refuse to eat, I even get annoyed to my mom whenever she asks me what I want to eat, because she knows that the answer will always be "I'll eat anything"; as far as I remember I was like 7 years old when I would start asking my mom to teach how to cook and obviously she woul...

 Brain Wave #3: Falling into the procrastination paradox I was struggling to take a nap earlier today, and I'm not gonna lie I'm not much of a napper: I can only actually nap like 10% of the times that I try, also because when I can, I end up sleeping way more than I should've, waking up sweaty, hungry, bad bad headache. But yeah, naps aren't for me, unless it's one of those days like today where I had such a tiring day at university, my head has been killing me the whole day, and all I want to do is just collapse in my bed, maybe stuff my face with carbs beforehand and ignore all my responsibilities and due tasks. All this willingly knowing that I am already regretting it just at the thought of it. Honestly, that might just be one of the reasons why I can't fall asleep, but at the same time I'm the type of person who requires the lights off and absolute silence to rest. This is exactly where I fall in this paradox I want to talk about: I'm too tired to ...

  Brain Wave #2: The universe is really vast. I am very much aware that the title of this entry is quite vague, but let me cook! A few years ago I had this physics teacher the last 6 months of high-school: the guy had two PhDs and he knew so much about philosophy and shit, we don't talk about the rest of his career lmao; but one important lecture he gave to us before exam period is the intrinsic significance every human has based solely on thermodynamics. He told us how each and every one human has an infinitesimally small chance to be born as the person they're, down to each DNA strand. Each philosophical lesson he ever gave us made me always think deep, about how I wanna be a smarter person myself, about how I wanna pursue my ever going dream of being a more knowledgeful person. That talk in particular personally hit me the most, I feel like people out there don't think about everything in their surroundings too much, to be totally honest I don't really blame them: ph...

Brain wave #1: I have no idea how this works, let's just roll with it! I tweeted a couple months ago that I wanted to make a blog, something 90s/early 00s style where I can just share my thoughts every now and then and stuff: and I know that I can literally do it on Twitter as I always did for the past few years, but y'know just the feeling of something in which I can share information in a way in which I saw in media which I grew up with makes me think it's a bit cooler. I gotta admit, I was mostly influenced by Lain and All about Lily Chou-Chou, media in which I haven't myself in these much, but had made me think a lot: the internet nowadays is at its peak as well as at its trough, connecting everyone from the world made it possible to share information as well as we like it, but also connected people in a way in which it was unimaginable, we now know how many people in the world think, how wholesome but also how horrible they can be, the notion of social community ha...