Brain Wave #23: Honey, it don't matter

 Brain Wave #23: Honey, it don't matter

Man I sure love almonds and almond flavoured stuff, hopefully one day I don't get diabetes.
Let me talk about something I'm completely uneducated on.

Clear the chalkboard, scratch everything, forget about the "I understand how everyone thinks in a different way" sort of idea I will try to get as objective as I can in my writing, you'll understand as you read I guess.

I've started reading "The Guy She Was Interested in Wasn't a Guy at All" also referred to as green yuri, if you know you know, which I first heard of in May of 2024 but didn't get into until yesterday, but whatever; I asked DeepSeek so I know that I'm right *insert nerd emoji* in saying that it can be considered a "slice of life" manga, now I'm not the biggest consumer of anime and manga (simply not only because I change interest every month, but also because I'm really really slow at consuming any media that I'm interested in) but I get the whole idea of what "slice of life" is. Me being me, I caught myself doing what I do on a regular basis: thinking to myself "Oh man, I wish I was 17 again" which I'm not gonna get too much into personal detail, but now that I've grown I mean that I wish that I was younger, not to specifically travel back in time when I was 17 and doing what I was doing. Anyhow, what I would like to get to is: I caught myself thinking that way too many times, and not only I think what I just mentioned, but I even start questioning myself WHY? Y'know me, I'm the weird guy who thinks that shit.
Why do we wish to be in a "slice of life"? Yeah, not that exactly, that would be concerning a bit.
Why do we wish short-term happiness? Two things to mention before we get into it: 1. yeah don't question me, that's the type of shit I think about while "I'm supposed to enjoy the manga" 2. yeah we're definitely stepping into very philosophical concepts, I will try to keep it simple as my brain is also smooth.

"short-term happiness" could mean a myriad of things: winning the lottery, sticking a needle up your arm, jerking it crazy style, heck even drinking Coca-Cola, you name it. Again it's something that is subjective to every single person, we don't know what we seek, but that's the thing that we all have in common "we seek short-term happiness". It's yet another thing that keeps us all connected as a species, something that keeps me up at night thinking exactly "why?" (lots of quotation marks, lots of abstract concepts, I'll try to keep it together) why do we all seek SHH (short-term happiness?). Well I think I got a few points to make, and I'm just gonna go off the record by saying that I'm not talking about shit like getting a dopamine hit off watching TikTok for 6 hours a day.
There is something in all of us that subconsciously wants us to pursue this SHH, obviously unless you're like a monk in the Alps who has given up on all extrinsic values, matter of fact you wouldn't be even reading this. But I feel like the reason why we do it isn't just for the "instant dopamine hit" that we get has we "achieve" it, but also because sometimes we might be blinded by these events that we stop thinking about achieving something in the long term. I'm not gonna get into addictions or anything, but I will say that I'm nobody to say that this is any right or wrong, it's part of human nature, but trying to unblind ourselves to see that we are "better than this" is often more difficult than keep on wanting SHH, we are indeed a lazy species. Going back to the "slice of life" I feel like at times it is also a matter of "not wanting to mature" other than this being a probable cause of an unhealthy mental status (I think at least) it is also a matter of not wanting to take responsibility into accepting that time and life moves on, that we cannot be wishing for something that our life will never be. I know I worded it very badly, I just want to say that sometimes a part of maturing is accepting which course your life is going to take, yes you're the craftsman of your own destiny and whatnot, but that change is not gonna happen overnight. The need of constant SHH itself is a addiction itself in some way, I feel like growing up we should be reducing that need, and I'm very aware that I always talking about this same concept over and over, but as I learn everyday I should spread the message even though sometimes I feel like it's kinda useless because that is also a very personal experience to unravel.
We don't understand the brain that much, because of that we cannot understand each other that much, behavioural changes are something so strange that even my whole yap before doesn't make any fucking sense, I acknowledge that, why are you still reading? Wait got a bit off track. Obviously I don't have the answers to everything, but I feel like something like why do humans try to seek something this simple yet so complicated to our minds to comprehend is not a question with a quantifiable answer. Like, what the fuck am I even saying now? 
What I do know however, is that us humans are in constant state of "need", it's almost like a survival instinct, and I'm not talking about greed now, we're just not happy with having less that [blank] could be anything or anyone, could be chasing something material, abstract, a feeling, we just want more and more no matter what it is for an individual, I mean look at Epstein...bad example? I mean look at Didd- nope no no... you get what I'm trynna say. And that is fucking weird! Which brings me to yet another point.

We are animals. Whether you like it or not, we are no different to animals out there in the wild (physically speaking) and there are of course people (I'd say everyone to go on a reach) who do not like the fact. I'm not only talking about us being self conscious, that is a big point give me a second, but we try our hardest to make this huge divide between our species and the animal kingdom. I'm not saying let's go back to running around naked out in the wild, even though if you see me do that exact thing at your local jungle it wasn't me ;). I'm trying to say that people don't realise how fucking worthless (maybe not the most sensible word) we are compared to animals. We ain't got shit against animals. I was actually thinking about writing a blog about how crazy it is that we invented shit like guns and evolution-wise that is insane, but that could get real messy real quick, I don't know if I get the right argument in mind I might end up writing about it. But if you put the world's strongest man in a forest with an angry ass grizzly bear, let me tell you I'll put my life savings on that furry beast. I actually don't know who's the strongest man in the world right now, nor his body hair situation, so don't take 100% of my words seriously? But simply because our species thought of itself as "superior" just because of how our brains work, we got that rush of  "need" that we should become independent of nature and do our own shit. It's because we chase things like SHH that we try to "come on top" and yet we're not satisfied with everything we got because we torment and hypnotise ourselves by the idea that we could always end up having more. Emphasis on the "end up" to be honest, because the whole premise of this whole discourse is that we don't actually think of the end goal, we decide not to look that far because the satisfaction coming from something short-term that we "crave". Going back to us being self conscious animals, I meant what I said: we are indeed animals, our senses reply to different stimuli around us, we react to what comes to us and want to feel these reactions as chemical interaction in our brains more and more. Animals don't concern themselves with what happens around them unless it's their survival, us having "solved" this survival problem we still seek for more to fill this void, to feel more and more and to do it as effectively as we can, we survive the moment with this SHH and bring out the animal in us to think about that very event and not the grand scheme of things!

Let's be super real with ourselves: not only what I've just said is so not based on facts and shit, I'm not gonna change humanity or anything with walls of typed words on a computer. I'm not gonna say that none of this matters, I will say it is indeed human nature and many people are sort of aware of things like this. Matter of fact I believe that there are lots of people out there who understand this type of thing and don't concern themselves with short-term achievements, rather work towards something bigger in the long-term. I just feel like we developed a real weird characteristic as a species. As sentient creatures not only we desire more and more information as we question ourselves about our existence, but also we throw that completely away and trap ourselves in the realm of desire.
I've been reading green yuri, I wish I was like Mitsuki so bad, I'm not even gonna lie with you.

Good bai for now, poposwag