Brain Wave #26: Blown 'round by the wind

 Brain Wave #26: Blown 'round by the wind

I might've thought about writing thousands of times, but just so y'know I'm a lazy fuck and I've gotten even lazier since the last time I posted here. Lemme tell you a couple things.

I mean yeah I did go through the first semester of my second year in uni, which if you don't know is worse than the darkest pit of Hell described by Henry Emily, so even though I did flourish with ideas (3 to be exact) about things I wanted to talk about, I just didn't find the time to convince myself to write about them. Although one of them kinda requires some scientific research to be done beforehand,,,and let's just say that I wasn't really able to do so.

Imma just start by summarising some cool things that I've done during this time, because y'know I've been living life and shit and learning stuff. So I have been on a road trip to Norway.

You know lately I've been really interested in the whole deal going on with the concept of empathy. It is rather considered good to not be a dogshit human being, but at the same time aren't we wasting our times a bit? I mean yeah you can come from me and tell me that I might be a sociopath by just stating this, but at the same time hear me out? I'm not obviously saying that we should just stop feeling for others and caring about their emotions, because you know that would be quite fucking depressing and will probably make everybody a piece of shit towards each other. But at the same time I think that in some instances people just don't care about some things that you go through, and not in a bad way whatsoever, I've seen a video recently (which to be honest just quickly mentioned what I'm talking about, but it definitely got me thinking) about this guy talking about how one should realise that people out there sometimes won't really care about your hardships. I'm gonna be honest I don't really remember the rest of the video. But if I was to put my opinion on that: I'm not just gonna say that personally I've also learnt that the hard way and don't really speak much about hardships in life (or maybe sometimes my problems? but I shouldn't really be going around saying shit like this like I am right now) and learnt that whenever achieving something that you've put a lot of hard work in people won't care about what you went through and only look at the end product, but I also think that we should learn better that the feeling of success should impact us harder when we keep it to our selves. I really think that success is within us, that being any type of success of course, but the real challenge is against our selves and we should feel on top of the world whenever we're able to fight through our hardships and get some satisfaction in return. Some motherfuckers out there are obviously gonna think that I'm saying the most obvious shit in the world, but guess what it's me saying this: the same guy who cannot shut the fuck up about everything in this world being unimportant than knowledge and the people you give a shit about. Because yes, even if you're able to mentally work your way through understanding that empathy isn't universal, you probably are out there having your judgement being controlled by something outside the realm of your own psyche!

Am I being a bit egoistic? Maybe, maybe...but being selfish (hmm better word) is good sometimes *question mark*

I didn't even want to talk about that shit anyway, just came up in my mind as I was typing.

Have you realised that we don't live among real ass human people anymore? I've found myself having this conversation more frequently as time passes, that is definitely something I've been wanting to talk about for a while. I've been called "hyper-aware of myself" lately, which I mean...might be right, but at the same time I don't always think that people should think the way that I do (emphasis on the "not always") but I do feel like people out there are losing their self-awareness day by day. I don't mean to sound like a dumb fuck who complains about cellular phones and their impact on people, however I do sometimes mention how people's "judgement" can be obscured by so many things out there: surprise surprise one thing being their phones. Or at least anything that people have been given by the internet and the ability to access any sort of information that they can within arm's reach. Lemme cook one second. Obviously people know that anything that you see on the internet, especially other people, consists of a small percentage of what their lives are about (unless you're a weirdo posting about everything) and unfortunately people get influenced (I wonder what that word correlated to) by what they see on a daily basis, and I mean that is "normal" human behaviour because of how our brains process information about other people, but of course most people are not aware that what they're seeing does not directly correlate to what the world out there is like. What I'm trying to say (I missed typing this sentence) is that I feel like I go outside (whenever I actually do lmao) and less than 1% of the people I see or interact with, I feel like they're aren't completely basing their lives on the fuckass device they have in their hands, because luckily this 1% has it in their pockets. And I say this about the UK, the country I live in unfortunately, and probably this might apply everywhere else as well, but if you go outside and try to interact with anyone: high chance is that you would definitely try to talk with someone who always has their face on a screen most of the time and only care about what's going on on the internet and only talk about what's on the internet and completely do not give a shit about real life and achieving great goals in their lives and trying to become a real fucking human being! (I got a poetic licence, I'm allowed to use all those "and"s trust)
I'm not too sure if I brought that point forward as much as I'd like, as always of course, but hopefully you understand that it is basically useless trying to out there in the world and find civilised people who are also aware of their real lives and not care about the world inside of a screen at the same time.

Somewhat in harmony (I looked up "correlated synonyms" lmao) to what I said before, AI is getting pretty fucking bad man...RAM prices are insane...LMAO nah I don't really care at the moment, I'm a laptop boy luckily, just gotta pay 4 times the price in however many years it would take me to attempt and completely fail to build a pc. I did see some video essay, that I obviously did not watch, about YouTube and ads and shit. Let me tell you, it is not good, at least from my perspective. Now, I know that most likely YT ads are "catered" to each user, but whatever the fuck I get is utter bullshit. Lemme just clear out the occasional gambling site for Counter-Strike skins ad, that I get like every 5 Counter-Strike videos I watch,,,but other than that it is BAD, the ads that I get are one of two kinds: either ads for actual gambling site, lots of different ones, which are CLEARLY promoting gambling to ANYONE because I refuse to accept that under 18 people are not getting these ads as well, which is definitely illegal because guess what anybody has any age on their YT account, unless you verified 18+ through some AI bullshit, circling back huh?
Secondly, of course, I get ads about so many fucking AI sites and apps and whatever the fuck OMGBRUH the way so many corporates are now trying to fucking carve through your grey matter and completely decompose your brain with so much AI bullshit is fucking insane to me. And I mean of course AI corpos want to expand as much as they want and dominate the world with their tomfoolery, but isn't it fucking crazy that so many people just let it slide and allow themselves to be rotted from the inside...this is indeed important, if you're wondering, important to me at least because this shit [insert paragraph before].

Maybe I should've actually made it separate entries just so I'm able to talk about shit in more detail, but what the fuck do I care? I'm back at this shit I guess, and unfortunately I'm back to using Twitter on a regular basis *broken heart emoji*

Good bai for now, poposwag.