Brain Wave #9: Without all this

 Brain Wave #9: Without all this

Another conversation I've been having with my friends recently is: what would I actually like to do if I wasn't pursuing a degree, get a job afterwards, and live a life that modern society advertises you as normal. Well, my answer got received as quite unusual, but if it was for me: literally tomorrow I would leave everything that is going on in my life and just walk.

I would like to escape from everything that I've been doing for the past 20 years and start a new life off the charts. Off the radar. If I could just disappear in one second I would just explore the world at its fullest. I would equip myself with a big ass hiking bag with: survival necessities, a few interesting books, a camera to take one singular picture per country I visit, a pair of headphones, and an mp3 with like unlimited music, obviously a power bank as well for the mp3 I guess. To then begin my journey, I would like to explore as much of this planet as I can, and all of this with the minimal amount of flying that I can, maybe if I need to go across an ocean or something I would fly, but other than that it's just walking, hitchhiking, and whatever helps me go forward.

You can already see that this plan has a lot of complications, many of which are not even complications: they just make this whole journey a fucking idiocy. However, if you know me even a teeny tiny bit y'know that I already thought about these. First of all, disappearing off the face of the planet politically-wise: well, in this day and age that's just impossible, erasing my identity is just something that I cannot do as a human being born in 2004, that's simply because of how multiple government organisations have exact details on me existing on this planet and proving that I am a person, this might sound a bit complex, but with the government having my fingerprints, pictures of me over the years and even documents like my birth certificate and no death certificate, it is pretty damn impossible for me to just become nobody. The reason why I feel like I need to do all this disappearance in order to pursue this journey, is simply because not only if I want to go to everywhere out there I need to pass borders and stuff, which requires a legal process, but also because I wouldn't like to be spotted by an official or someone that is on the search for me because suddenly I decided to just up and go.

Second, way more obvious, point is because of how "society tells me to have a normal life" what I mean with this: is that nowadays you don't see anybody just doing shit like this for their own fulfilment, I mean yeah there is some people out there who walk across countries and stuff just as personal achievements or for spiritual reasons and shit, but it's not like you see something like this everyday. And I'm not saying that everyone now should up and go walk thousands of miles just because it doesn't follow a modern dogma. But I'm trying to say that if it wasn't for this sort of abstract "oppression" that we're put under all of our lives, to get a job and live our life like everyone else just to literally survive wherever we are in the world, no matter the amount of wealth we own: we should just follow whatever our heart says and not try to do what everyone else does. Holy shit I could've made this point in a much less corny way, I apologise if that sounds really cheesy. But y'know I'm saying that even for a guy like me, who's interested in physics and I would like a life full of knowledge, getting to know more and more things by the day, I shouldn't still be following the path of getting a job and living a life where I just try to survive until the end of my day, much rather I would like to just see the whole world and learn new things everyday that way, even if it's not cracking the theory of everything.

Thirdly, are you even imagining what on Earth would happen to me during this whole journey? And I'm not talking about shit like: "Oh my God, I'm gonna get bombed in these specific countries, or get kidnapped and killed in those specific countries" literally who the fuck cares, even if I was out there exploring the world right now I would figure out a way to live. Anyway, I'm talking about what would happen to me as a person, what would happen to my mind as I visit so many places. Of course, I would go insane pretty quickly lmao, but let's not talk about that. I feel like I will be so overwhelmed by how fascinating a journey like this would be, think about it: connecting to my very story on this blog, I will be able to see so many points of view, so many different lives, so many different environments and actual "worlds" everywhere that I go. With "worlds" I mean that everything that is living, is living in its own "world" because of how we're conscious beings, we still cannot totally comprehend something that is not withing the realms of what we interact with, obviously in an era in which information is transferred and processed so quickly we get to know things from everywhere, but we will never be able to understand it the same way in which we understand the stuff that we interact with in our lives. And I believe that this journey of exploring the planet will definitely level up the diversity of stuff which I will interact with.

Final point, you and I both know that isn't actually going to happen, right? Isn't that insane? We are not able to do anything we wish because: the government would stop us in some sort of way, society norms would oppose our ideology, and human minds cannot yet comprehend the fulfilment of a life changing journey. Holy shit again, I sounded like an anarchist right there, and trust me I do not mean it that way, I am not advocating for full liberty and stuff like that, stuff that get said in cults and such...I mean that as humans we really caused ourselves subject to certain limits, limits that we might not even know if are too strict or not strict enough, obviously because we don't fully understand what could fulfil our minds to its fullest. Okay, never mind, I cannot stop myself from sounding like I'm part of some cult, but I swear I'm not.

So yeah, my point being that if it was for me I would just up and leave whatever is going on in my life and go for a long ass walk. But guess what, that is just not possible the way I want it. Also, it would last ages, I don't exactly know how long, but I would be fulfilled as long as I'm travelling. I wonder what I would do, once and if I come back. But I would definitely think about what to do with all those pictures.

Well,,,this was quite a rant/essay. But what I'm trying to bring home here is that if it wasn't for other human beings in the past being dumbasses and building this ass society that we live in now, it would be so much easier for everyone to pursue their dreams. But at the same time: I'm completely wrong because there are bad people out there lol. I would be surprised to know that you've read this far, what is actually wrong with you? Caring about some bullshit that I type out. I probably forgot some stuff to say today as well, but it's fine, you always get what I mean, right? Last time I forgot that I wanted to mention that I finished my recent rewatch of Breaking Bad, just to start watching Better Call Saul, and I've just finished season 2, been loving it so far.

Good bai for now, poposwag.